Is it my fault?

Here's a story about a weak heart.
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When you really like someone, have you ever feel or do this?
You think about them frequently, mostly every night before you sleep,
You care about them without realizing it,
Even you dream about them in your tight sleep....
And you smile every time you think about them, even when only remembering their name,
and you never notice it.


I don't know, if this is a bad or good decision, to have this feeling for you. You, yes you.
They say you are not a good person,
and honestly, it's not that I don't believe it,
but I just believe that there must be good sides of you.
And I care about you, you know?
I look for you when I enter the class, I look for you when I go out from the class.
And when you are not come, it dissapoints me.
Sometimes, stealthtily, when my friends don't know, I check your absent list, and it always full.
And I just laugh a little. :D

You're funny,
and you're smart, I believe it.
But, just attend more classes, please.....
And do your assignments.....

So I can see you a little more :(


Maybe I fall in love too fast,
but I also don't want it, you jerk. :(
Why is it you? Why is it now?
I also never know the answer.
But, is it wrong?
Tell me.

Maybe they will say, that we don't match each other.
Maybe they will say, that I'm not good for you, or you're not good for me.
But is it my fault?
Tell me.

If I'm asked, "Will you get rid this feeling if you can?"
I'm also not sure.
Because sometimes, I'm happy with this,
but sometimes I'm sad.

You wanna know what makes me sad?

Because I don't know anything about you.
I just know your 'bad' side :(
I even don't know if you're single or you're taken.
I don't know who to ask, I'm embarassed :'(

And the worst part is, you also don't know me, right?
And you even don't wanna know about me.
Because you don't need me.
You're not having the same feeling for me.

Miserable.

More I want to end this feeling, more and more I feel it.

And do you know?
Last night, also the other night, you came into my dream.
And it's a nice dream :)
So, thank you for it, at least :')


Ketika, kurasakan sudah, ada ruang di hatiku yang kau sentuh
Dan ketika, kusadari sudah, tak selalu indah cinta yang ada..
Mungkin memang, ku yang harus mengerti,
Bila ku bukan yang ingin kau miliki,

Salahkah ku bila kaulah yang ada di hatiku?

Adakah ku singgah di hatimu,
Mungkinkah kau rindukan adaku,
Adakah ku sedikit di hatimu?
Bilakah ku mengganggu harimu,
Mungkin kau tak inginkan adaku,
Akankah ku sedikit di hatimu?

Bila memang ku yang harus mengerti
Mengapa cintamu tak dapat kumiliki,

Salahkah ku bila kaulah yang ada di hatiku?

Bila cinta kita tak 'kan tercipta,
Ku hanya sekedar ingin 'tuk mengerti
Adakah diriku singgah di hatimu?
Dan bilakah kau tahu,

Kaulah yang ada di hatiku....

(Maliq n d'Essentials - [Untitled])