The Ugly Truth

Hey, everybody.

There is a girl.
Just an ordinary girl. Very ordinary. Flat.
She's not too pretty, not too smart, not too funny.
She's silent instead.
She's also can't sing, terrible at sports, you know.
She used to be taekwondoin but,
actually she's not too good.
She only has silver medalies, not the gold ones. So she isn't that good right?
And her stamina is terrible.
So, she's not get much attention, especially by the boys.

She's not good at speaking. I said it, she's silent instead.
So now, she's in college's freshman year right now, and she hasn't made any close friends, or some group, yet.
No, no, not because they're mean, they bully, no. It isn't something like that.
She's just not comfortable yet.
Yeah, comfortable.
Because she's just want to spend her life with the ones who make her happy,
not with the ones that she has to impress.
She hates being forced. How can you make friends because you're forced?
Sucks.

She's also sucks at speaking, public speaking. She's bad at chatting with new friends.
She's sucks at a group discussion. She always loses to her friends, so her opinion is never been heard.
Yeah.. Because her friends are smart too.. They know what they're talking about, they have experiences, they have knowledges, and she isn't.
She's really terrible.
She's always think too much, she isn't have confidence.
She isn't critical. She even doesn't have confidence to ask some questions in class.
And she's bad at joking. She can't jokes. She's not funny, not cool, I said that, right?
So, don't ask again why she can't easily make friends.

But, at least, she's pure. She's honest. I said HONEST.
She dresses as she wants to, she dresses comfortably, not because of the trend, or not because her friends tell her it's good.
She says 'don't know' if she's really doesn't know, she says 'don't have' if she really doesn't have, and she says 'don't want' to, if she really doesn't want to.
She goes by public transportation, and she's doing it okay.
And, she's not using the f***ing BlackBerry, and once again, she's okay with that.
She hates being forced. She's independent.
She loves being herself.

But you know what, now she's trying to fix everything.
She'll learn, learn everything, to make her personality get better.
She's learning how to speak. She's learning how to write.
She's trying to make friends, to chat, even though it still sucks, but she's TRYING.
She won't force to joke, she's just will try to relax, to be comfortable, to be confident :)
She will also study, make her brain better, to get more and more knowledge.
She will get good grades, she will get a scholarship. She will succeed.
And she will doing it step by step :)
She won't rush. Why rushes?
And she will always be herself. She will get better, but she won't change :)

You know what, she still have friends.
Although it's only a few, she's very close to them.
She tells everything to them, and will do anything for them, if they need some help.
They mean everything for her.
She loves them,
purely.
Just like sisters :)

And...... She misses her high school friends, her bestfriends absolutely :')
She thinks about them everyday, she wants to meet them everyday.
But it's hard. They're all busy.
And you know what, they are always be the best friends all over the world.
They, are, the, best :)

And the best part is, she believes in God :)
She prays everyday and won't get tired.
And she have her parents,
the ones who will always be there for her,
who always love her, no matter how sucks their only daughter is.
And she will try hard to make them happy, to make them proud :)

She will always remember that, step by step.
And if something bad happened, or something burden her,
she will just smile, and, relax :)


*You know what, this posting may come out again someday, in this blog, or everyday.
Because this is very important, for her :)